my stupid blog

2009-07-27T16:36:00.000+08:00

MOVED TO LIVEJOURNAL!

2009-04-22T14:28:00.002+08:00

eyes filled with tears,
mind filled with you.
tears of misses for you.

2009-04-17T09:15:00.002+08:00

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

and its unlike any other

your eyes are the brightest of all the colours

and i never wanna love another

2009-04-10T13:48:00.002+08:00

lets just let it fade away.
and stop the lies.

2009-03-17T16:04:00.002+08:00

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

chua xinni chua xinni
you're seriously crazy
open your heart lah
come on..

haiz.

2009-03-04T17:13:00.002+08:00

I walk the line
Leave it all behind
I've been waiting forever
Lets go back in time
When I could read your mind
Still I've been waiting

It took the seasons going by
To know its not my fault

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

Its been so long
Since you've been home
I used to wait up forever
I used to say a prayer
Wishing you were there
And I'm still waiting

You told me once
You'd show up
But I fell for that
Before I fell to pieces
Then I woke up
To no one,
Just a picture of Jesus
And a house left in pieces

It took the seasons going by
To know its not my fault

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you
I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything but you

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

words that are sweet could stab deep...

2009-02-07T21:55:00.003+08:00

you're my weakness
you're my strength
what am i without you

i'm like near the cross road and i dont know what to do.
freak man. hate this!
i need a direaction. i need to decide.
i wanna make big bucks!!!!!!!!!

training training and training.
game game game.
haiz. sian man.

whats the point of planning when you cant carry it out?! :/

oh well.

daisy pretty
pretty daisy(:

BYE!

2009-01-25T18:01:00.003+08:00

Don't hang up,Can we talk?
So confused
It's like im lost.
What went wrong?
what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is meIm unchangeable

When did weFall apart?
Or did you lieFrom the start?
When you said
Its only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
Were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

Ive been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep insideI know that's true
Im stuck in time
Im stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz im only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much betterAll together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful
It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Make me unbeatiful

remember i said i'll cry to my death...

(9263!)

2009-01-24T12:49:00.002+08:00

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

why why why? :(

2009-01-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

will you miss me
the way i miss you

hockey training gonna start soon.
damn sian!
it seems like slacking and sleeping time is nvr enough. D:

chinese new year is coming.
i dont wanna go home.

i need to get busy,
free times makes me think too much.
or perhaps i should just go and sleep and i'll think of nothing.

i cried,
you know.

BYE!

2009-01-13T11:59:00.002+08:00

all i wanna do is be with you
be with you
there's nothing we cant do
just wanna be with you
only you

isn't it kind of bored?
hmmmm.

i dont really miss trg but somehow i wanna play hockey! like wth!

this month is all about floorball ivp and u21 hockey.

i'm such a slacker! hate it!

i'm like waiting for money to drop down from the sky! DAMN!

BYE!
(4697249!)

2009-01-04T14:45:00.002+08:00

I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea

i cant wait for chinese new year to faster faster come come!!!!
cause firstly, its school holiday!!!! :D
secondly, there's MONEY MONEY!!!!!!!$$$$$$$
thirdly, there's goodie goodie food FOOOOODDDD!! :D
fourthly, there's mahjong and poker!!!!!$$$$$$$$
omg. so many things!!! i like i like!(:

i seems so money minded right? cant stand it.
but. wait! think of it.
more money = more good food!(:
right? right?? RIGHT??
yeah! :D

hahaha. well. i had a long long holiday alr. din go to school since new year eve. whoa! 5days alr. no wonder i'm like still in holiday mood. DAMN! :/

under21 tournament started and we played our first game ytd!
won 23-0! yeah. next up will be crescent A!

omg! its the number 23!!! D:
you get it?!

hurrr. so tired!
i love late night chit chat!(:

BYE!

2009-01-01T21:38:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

yeah yeah yeah.
its a brand new year.(:

HEEESSSSSSSS!!!!!!
i love to eat!(:

Din Tai Feng

YUMMYLICIOUS!!!!! :D:D:D

FIREWORKS!!

totally awesome!(: THANK YOU!!!!! :D

alright.

BYE!

2008-12-30T23:27:00.001+08:00

for better or worse
till death do us part
i'll love you with every beat of my heart
and i swear...

i guess this would be my last post for 2008!
yeah. haha.

a quick summary.
2008 started off like shit! its like big cries! but well..
i have so many sorries to say, so many people to thank,
and so many happy sad crazy events happened.
but nothing could beat getting to know some great friends!(:
and its like 364days of unhappiness,
but just 1day of joy you gave, could sum up my 2008 with a big smile! :D

yeah. thats all i guess.

and i cant believe badminton can make me ache! my wrist hurts!
hahahhaha. guess i need more practice!(:

i super heart emo love songs!

alright! great year ahead. i hope.. (:

nights!(:

BYE!

2008-12-28T00:58:00.002+08:00

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick...

hi peeps!
its ben long since i blog.
hahhahah.

came back from the wonderful sermban trip.
became like charcoal. so dark lah! D:
hurrrr.

back to school for FYP...

and it was all about gng out and eat eat EAT!!!!!
love it baby! :D

christmas was a blast! right? (:
'save the best for the last' totally true! (:

yeah yeah yeah.
guess thats all.

oh. did i mention the movies australia and bedtime stories were awesome?!
yeah.

alright.
time to sleep! (:
nights! loves! (:

BYE! :D

2008-12-20T12:18:00.002+08:00

i'll be there for you...

i'm back!

updates....
we won pakistan today 1-0! :D
yay! hahahha. which means we have alr secure a 6th position.
playing malaysia tmr in the morning. yeah.

and so today is the last second day at seremban.
going home tmr! (aren't you happy?)
yeah.
i dread gng back to school!
rahhhh.

alright.
its lunch time!

BYE!

2008-12-18T21:57:00.002+08:00

and its for you again...

hi peeps!
i'm back again!

updates about the tournament.
we're third in our group which means we wont meet malaysia in the next round.
yeah! playing pakistan on satudarday morning! yeah. we have to win in order to play in the 5th and 6th position match. which would probably be playing against malaysia. yeah.
thats all i guess.

official dinner tomorrow!
cool shit!!! means i can get to see all my cool cool players from other teams! :D

hmmm. 3 more days left at seremban.
i dont wanna go back...
its like so relax here.
but.....
how i wish i could bring you here.
right? hurr.

alright.
trg tmr at 8am!
gotta wake up at 6am! D:

nights!(:
loves!

BYE!(:

2008-12-17T09:54:00.002+08:00

and baby you know
i love you..

hi peeps!
i'm back again! :D

hahahhaha. today ia like day6 at seremban already.
updates on our game..
we lost 8-0 to india and drew 1-1 to chinese taipei.
and today we are playing against the mighty koreans! D:
i really hope we can keep the scoreline as low as possible so that we will qualify for the easier classification match! yeah. pray baby pray.

i'm like deprived of so much stuff here.
especially chocolates!!!!!! OMG!
(you better know what to do when i'm back!)

wah. sian. so tired. i wanna sleep man. but like no time! :/

meeting later at 1130
followed by lunch at 1230
then meeting at 1400 again
depart for stadium at 1530
and game at 1800!!!!!!
after that dinner, meeting, ice bath.
hah. D:

alright.

BYE!(:

2008-12-12T22:59:00.002+08:00

touch my hand....

hi peeps!
hahahhahha.
i'm like blogging in the hotel room now!
COOLIOSSSSSSSS!!!!!!! :D
(for your info, i'm at seremban, malaysia)

hahhahha. just ordered room service for this super big burger! SHIOK! (:
hurrrrrr.

anyways.
the hotel is damn shiok i swear!
PERFECT!!!!!!!! (:

alright!
lights out alr!

BYE!!!:D

2008-12-10T18:01:00.003+08:00

Tell me I'm not on my own.
Tell me I won't be alone.
Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

hi peeps!

DONUT FACTORY! :D

ISLAND CREAMERY! :D :D LOVES! <3
I SUPER HEART PASTA! :D

BOLT! DAMNNNNNN CUTEEEEEEE! :D :D :D

BYE!!!

(THANKS BABY! :D)

2008-12-08T12:01:00.002+08:00

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

its been good.
its been great.

hmmm.
slack for a week of FYP.
think coming week gonna be hard.
well well well.

hockey hockey hockey....
so sian already.
maybe it wouldnt be so sian if its like twice or thrice a week instead of 7 times a week!
seriously madness!!!!!

i want this
i want that
and guess thats all i ever wanted.
but i just cant get it.
can i buy it?
money please?

alright.
guess its time to get my ass off the comp!

BYE!

i'm sorry if i ever make you sad
i'm sorry if i ever disappoint you
i'm sorry if i ever make you angry
cause all i want is for you to be happy

2008-12-03T00:00:00.002+08:00

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something bout the look in your eyes
Something bout your beautiful face

In a sea people
There is only you
I never knew what this song was about
But suddenly now I do

Tryin to reach out to you touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you and the band
Tryin to reach out to you touch my hand

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
Cause if I do it will all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it will all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
a wonderwall of stars
But the one that's
shining out so bright
is the one right where you are

Tryin to reach out to you touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you and the band
Tryin to reach out to you touch my hand

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
Cause if I do it will all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it will all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again....

and it seems all so impossible
and i'll really go carzy if it were to stop
cause it has all gone out of the ordinary...

2008-12-02T21:56:00.003+08:00

baby its you
when i look into the sky i see you
everything reminds me of you...

OMG!
its like damn bored in school lah.
totally cant imagine this.
i wanna leave this place like soonnnnnnnnnn!
hah. cant wait for next week to come! (:

yeah. today was great!got home at 2plus and slept from 3plus till 7pm! SHIOK! hahahhha. its been long since i get a chance to sleep during noon time. :D

yeah yeah yeah!HAPPY!!!!!! :D

and i like the way it is right now.... (:

BYE! (:

2008-12-01T09:58:00.004+08:00

today is the day
that i'll be running back to you

today is thursday.
yeah.
i'm in school right now.
trying to search some microbial shit!
damn hard to find! D:

its been pretty boring especially daytime!!!!
like so sian!

haiz.
i cant wait for chinese new year then got alot alot of food!!!!
RAHHHHH!!!!

bye!

2008-12-01T09:58:00.003+08:00

try to leave a light on when i'm gone...

i'm in school now!!!!
hahaha.
check this out!!!

D: :D

see the difference!

yeah.

BYE!

you make me happy

you make me sad

and i'm lost...

2008-11-30T15:56:00.002+08:00

if i were a boy....

back again!
hah!

attachment is finally over!
YAY! :D

but...................
FYP starts tmr!
SIAN TO THE MAX!

hmmmmmmm.
training for the whole of the next week!
SIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!
HAIZ!

welll welll welll....

will be back again!
BYE!

2008-11-24T20:02:00.003+08:00

And i love it the way you touch me...

HELLO! (:

finally a day of rest from hockey trg! :D
yeah.

food is my best friend!
(to the PIG: are you like drooling?)

prawn paste pancake! <3

xiao long bao + dumpling! <3

and yeah. these were overdued photos! hah.

was duper duper busy that i got no time to go online!

hahahhha.

and i hope we could sit down and have a meal together soon!

and i mean real soon!

just like that! (:

and this speaks it all....

alright!

i doubt i'll be back so soon!!!!

BYE!
treasuring every moment...

2008-11-22T10:57:00.002+08:00

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

YO!
this blog might be dead for weeks but i'm not dead yet! (:
hah.

counting down to last 5 days of attachment! :D
time really flies!

so many things to say so little time to do it.
i gotta go off now before i'm late for my trg!

today is a good day! :D
you dont have to know why...

BYE!

2008-11-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

I WANT THIS PHONE!

PLEASE FREAKING GIVE ME THE MONEY TO BUY IT!

2008-11-08T19:53:00.002+08:00

i'm lost lost lost
so baby
please lead me back lead me back
lead me back into your arms

oh my god!
my stomach muscles are hurting like some fucking shit!
totally fuck it.
cant stand it.
hate to do core! now my arms are aching from those push up too!
rahhhhhh....

anyhow.
i guess it ended off quite well.
and i din regret it at all.
hah (:

i need a good massage!
cause these aches cant go on anymore.
i'll die man! D:

hurrr.
3 more weeks of attachment left. :D :D :D

i'm loving it!

alright.
BYE!

2008-11-05T21:30:00.003+08:00

you make it real for me
and I'm running to you baby
you are the only one who save me
that's why ive been missing you lately
cause you make it real for me

under 21 training started yesterday
and my stomach is aching today! thanks to all the sit ups!
hmmm. but the drills were quite fun though! haha. (:

and my back is like breaking soon!
rahhhhhh!!!!!! hate it!
hah.

here you go!
your cute little video! :D
hahaha. so funny! so retarded! hurrr. (:

for those who watch and dont understand the video, its okay. cause its not meant to be understood! (:

alright!

cheers!

BYE! (:

(P.S: hees! :D)

2008-11-01T15:41:00.002+08:00

i dont wanna lead you on
its cool we're just friends

finally like a week of break from hockey!
no trg = able to shop!
no trg = able to watch tv!
no trg = able to eat home cook food!
no trg = able to go home after tiring work!
no trg = able to sleep early!!! :D
TOTALLY LOVE IT BABY! (:

hmmmmm.
its not 'your' friend nor 'my' friend,
its OUR friend!
its not very nice feeling to be ignored!!!

enough said!

shall be back soon!
BYE!
P.S: lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala~

2008-10-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

When you love someone
and they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

i'm back! :)

yeah. and so this kl trip was alright i guess.
super tired i swear! hurrr.
played 3 hard tough matches in a row. can die!
and to think about swallowing those huge thick long pills was oh my mother! D:
and i swear i hate eating pills! yucks!

hmmmm. the lodging there was pretty alright i guess.
we stayed at this high performance centre for their elite altheltes. its like a hostel. yeah.
oh. but the food they serve was like hotel style besides the fact that there's lesser selection. but overall its fine i guess. yeah! :)

beep test on wednesday! D: D: D:
oh man. give me a rest!
rahhhhhh!

one more month and i'll be FREE from attachment! hooray! :D
hah.

till now and then.

BYE!

2008-10-24T14:26:00.002+08:00

there she goes again..

hah.
i'm leaving for kl for 4 days.
will be back on monday.
hell days i swear.

and take care when you're at india.
dont come back with ah neh guys!

alright.
got to go! (:

BYE!!!!!

2008-10-21T15:55:00.001+08:00

THANKS FOR BEING SUCH A GOOD FRIEND.

and again
fuck you man!

2008-10-19T15:37:00.007+08:00

dont know what to do
when you're not around

finally a rest after a busy week!
hah. (:
caught 2 midnight movies this week.
one was nice one was lame!
hahhahaha.

and my cute little friend drew me this! haaha. so funny. totally like monster! hahahha.

hahhah. alright. another busy week ahead.

looking forward to friday! (:

BYE!

2008-10-16T16:50:00.003+08:00

and i like it like that...

life's great.
life's suck.
all in all life's fine i guess. (:

hmmm.
been busy with attachment,
hockey trainings,
floorball polite games.
so busy that i hardly had anytime to rest not even to mention about watching tv programme at home! oh my.

i need sleep badly!
i wish i could dedicate a day just to sleep!

alright.
knocking off soooooooooooooon! :D

will be back soon i hope! (:

BYE!

2008-09-29T19:54:00.002+08:00

straight to the point

two words,

FUCK YOU!

for me to be like this
you know what it means.

dont ask me what happen.

2008-09-28T14:00:00.002+08:00

its penny and me tonight

friday night was great!
went out with my mates after training.
caught "my best friend's girl"!
a nice show! :)

i'm gonna make sure i feast well tonight!
hah!

please look at this:

*all events are after 5.30pm (after my bloody work!)
monday- floorball training???
tuesday- hockey friendly
wednesday- hari raya! yay! no work! :)
thursday- hockey training
friday- hockey training
saturday- hockey friendly
sunday- hockey training D: and gathering with the new coach :)

what a busy week!
rahhhhhhhhh.
so u see. i dont have time to go cut my hair!!!
and i dont have time to go shopping!

i cant wait for tournament to come!

and i swear i hate M&MS.
like reported, they are tainted and can cause death.
and i think we'll die having it in us!!!
(so you get what i mean?)

i'm listening to my darling jay chou new song now!
its chao nice to the core i swear!!!!
guess his new album is coming out soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY! :D :D :D

so yeah.

BYE! :)

2008-09-23T17:49:00.002+08:00

do you know
do you know
do you know what it feels like...

so its a no attachment day for me today.
went back to school for some boring conference thingy.
like wth lah. so sian lah. can sleep man. stupid!
so in the end, i end up playing poker with my beloved classmates at mac!
hahahhhahha.

yeah. and so i'm here typing all this!

blah blah blah....

training later.
sian.
hope i survive the fitness later.
hahahahah.

and lastly.
i'm not going to give a fucking damn shit bout anything anymore.

BYE!

2008-09-22T22:47:00.002+08:00

when everything falls apart

and again. i regret.

all i could do was to cry it out loud.

either way its wrong.

do i still have another solution?

perhaps i should just be selfish and think for myself.

but again is it worth it?

2008-09-20T15:58:00.002+08:00

If I had more money honey
Would you love me, love me, love me

thurday was work and training
friday was work and training again.

did beep test on friday training.
only managed to reach level 10.6.
tired mans! :/

hmmm.
and so today was off to delta again for penalty corner training in the morning!
oh my. had to sacrifice my wonderful sleep!
and perharps out later for some dinner. yeah.

i dont care if 'Coke light' is gng to make me fat
i'll still drink it!

yeah.

BYE!

2008-09-17T20:23:00.002+08:00

Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Another crush

woohoo!
its wednesday alr! and tmr will be thurday and then it would be friday and it'll be weekend again!!!! :D
time really files! hahahha.
i love it! :)

hurrr. and so yesterday during work was all about washing towel and gathering panalist to do sniff test, in another words to smell towels! haha. actually it is to evaluate the fragrance on the towel to test the profile and impact, whether the fragrance is strong or weak and whether we like it or not. yeah.
and today's work was 2 round of washing and parafilming perfume bottles! yeah.
TIRED MAN!!!
hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

oh oh oh!
did i mention fitness started alr?!
tian ah. tuesday trg was a shock when we saw cones on 4 corners of the pitch!
we did 25 mins of running (not jogging) and on about every 2.5mins interval we must accelerate to about 80% of our speed for about 30secs. wah. damn tired. i mean from my knees all the way down to my ankle is like argh! so tight! so heavy! hurrrrrr.

hmmm. think i got to go alr.
gng to sleep early tonight!
trg tmr again!
SCARED!!!!!

hahhahhaha.

BYE!

2008-09-15T20:01:00.003+08:00

How can I move on
when I'm still in love with you...

sunday
hockey game against ORA men was great i guess!
we managed to put in 3 goals thru the man's goal!
so happy!
well done girls! :D

and so today the first day of 2nd week of attachment!
hmmm. damn slack i swear!
spent my whole morning reading newspaper then lunch and after lunch was a short washing test and after that did some sensory test and home!

and here i am!
hurrrrrr.

just a little thought:
"if doing something that makes you unhappy, is it worth doing it?"
tag on my tagboard if you wanna share your opinion about it!
thanks!

BYE!

2008-09-14T14:47:00.003+08:00

You make it easier when life gets hard

oh dear its sunday alr! :/
weekends just have to pass so fast. like ZOOOOOOM!!
sadded. :(
gotta get my ass back to work tmr.
i mean waking up early! :/

hmmm.
so ytd game was great i guess.
i mean we manged to hold them in terms of scoreline.
got whacked by them previously by 11 or 12 nil and ytd was just 5.
and we even scored a goal! bonus man!
not to forget they are men we are women! :)

went for dinner.
and i'm happy cause i got donuts fron the donut factory! :D wee!
they got new flavours! cool! hahah.
and i went carrefour to buy the ex-sir-pen-sive ketie chips!
its damn nice and its trans fat free!! wahahah.
and my favourite of all times maltesers! shiok! :D
satisfy my cravings and NEEDS! HAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!

and so another game today at 7.30pm!

BYE!

2008-09-13T12:36:00.003+08:00

I wish we had one more kiss
I wait for you I promise you, I will

1 week of attchment gone!
11 more weeks to go! D:
hahha.

and i smells good everyday cause i'm in the fragrance house! :)
work is just slack and eat, slack and eat!
dotsssssssss!

i found myself a new best friend!
she's call sleep! and i love her alot! :)

"mai stress lah", "dont stress lah", "dont think about it"
but i just have to be reminded of it.

i got a game at 430pm later!
please pray for the weather to be nice!
i dont want scorching sun
i want cooling breeze!

BYE!

2008-09-10T20:04:00.002+08:00

run baby run
Forever will be
You and me

hello!

3rd day of attachment!
don't know if i should should say slack or nothing to do yet!
it can be quite boring if there's nothing to do. yeah.
and lastly,
i love lab! i love lab! i love lab! :D

so lets talk a little about hockey trg.
hmmmmm. trg under the new spanish coach was like fooyoooyooo!
super tiring i swear! though there's like no fitness at all!
cant imagine if fitness comes in.
think i'll just die!
hurrrr.

and i think i need sleep more than anything else now.

BYE!

2008-09-06T14:31:00.002+08:00

If I could be your angel

omg.
i'm freak tired!
a whole long week of freak trg! RAHHH!

i hope life would be better during attachment.

either way its wrong.

i think i'm a sicko
i just like it when i'm seeing you so down down down..
it makes me high high high!!!
oh sick me!

goodbye!

2008-09-03T19:51:00.002+08:00

Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe
In myself, it's the only way

hmmm. a whole new set of feelings after returning home.
and i wonder why again. why why why!

i guess it all sums up in the name of love for the sport? :/
i truely think so.
haiz.

though it was hell but most importantly i learn something today!!
satisfied.

hockey trg tmr.
having aches that have not recover and to train again,
i wonder how i will train tmr.

and so i'm done.

goodbye.

2008-09-03T12:06:00.003+08:00

I hung up
The phone last night
Something happened

(edit/)

day was great yesterday before some stuff happened.
caught a gruesome cruel gross movie. saddistic man.
yeah. thanks friend! :)

and so was back home pondering over and over again.
friends said "if i were u, i wont play alr" and i thought so too.
perharps its meaningless now.

since my contribution aint appreciated.

goodbye...

2008-08-29T21:59:00.001+08:00

You make me wanna run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear

and i cursed that guy to drop his dick while walking on the road.
WTF!

new coach arrived!
hell is going to start!

BYE!

2008-08-25T19:42:00.002+08:00

no one else
no one else
can speak the words on ur lips

3 papers down
2 more to go!
and tmr is my ever hated module of all ADVANCED FOOD CHEMISTRY! D:
haiz! si bei sian! -_-

life's so empty with the closure of olympics!
damn! :/
no more looking forward to the television alr.

i want to go on a forever holiday
like you know!

hmmmmm.
time to study!

and i think the 10pm korean show (i dont know the title of the show!?) in channel U is damn nice and damn funny!
but sadly, today is the last episode!
dvd anybody?

okay.
abit too long.

BYE!

2008-08-23T17:20:00.002+08:00

crossed...

i gained joy from being alone.

thats all i guess.

and i need to get those hair off my head!
seriously irritating alr.

BYE!

2008-08-21T17:35:00.002+08:00

why baby why?

hmmmm. 2 paper down. 3 more to go.
what a dread to have exams during the olympic period! :/
haiz.

anyways. trg on tuesday was great to the core!
yeah. really enjoyed it!
dinner with mates were great.
oh miss leng came down to delta. miss playing with her.

hmmmmmm.
caught the highlights of the women hockey semis
shiok to the core man!
FINALS: CHINA VS HOLLAND!
ohlalala~

Usain Bolt from Jamaica! 100m champ!

(can you run that fast?)

alrights peepssss
i gotta go for my hockey training already.
and i wanna play like those olympians!
oh my! :/ totally inspired by them!

BYE!

2008-08-18T20:52:00.002+08:00

you call that fate or coincidence?
and it left me wondering..

china's hope of winning in a track event...

thrashed as Liu Xiang walks out of the track without even starting his hurdle event!

haiz. what a disappointment.

i cant believe it man.

despite leaving home for my exam,

i was home waiting for this chinese man to finish his 110 hurdle event!

like WTH! he withdraw from his event without running.

haiz. there goes the olympic dream of this young man as well as the whole chinese crowd in the bird nest stadium!

total disappointment man.

alrights. thats all for today!

will be back soon!

BYE!

(P.S: if you realise, i din feature micheal phelps today! haha.)

2008-08-17T19:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARISSA LEE JIA HUI!!!

its been great knowing you! and i think i'll miss those days with you in school you when i'm on attachment! you know! playing bridge and poker! hhaha. anyway all the best for exams and cheers!!!!! :D

alright!
time now is 7.22pm.
in a few minutes time will be the finals for the table tennis women team.
cheers for singapore!!! :)

lastly, this machine here finally completed his quest for 8 olympic gold medal. thoday he finally won his 8th gold medal and is the greatest olympian living!

tadah! off for now!

BYE!

2008-08-15T23:28:00.004+08:00

baby you're all that i want
when you lie here in my arms

today is friday.
hmmm. caught the olympics game like crazy for the past few days.
even my nanny thinks i'm crazy. hahha.
cheering and rooting for team singapore table tennis women team who played in a nail biting semis during noon just now. hurr. the game started at 2.30pm and ended at like 6.15pm! damn long lah. and so they managed to win and enter the finals. and this marks the historic day where a medal is going to be won after like 40plus years since 1960s!
FINNALY a medal won in the olympic! cool shit!!!!! TOTALLY!

and some pics...

how i dream to play here! :/

some hockey actions...

check out the silver medalist! :)
shawn johnson!!!
and shawn johnson again! she's damn cute i swear! :D

and lasty. darling macheal phelps won his sixth gold medal breaking world record again!
water freak he is!

i'm off for more tv!

BYE!

2008-08-13T23:44:00.003+08:00

there's more to life

finally blogging after m.i.a for like afew days! hurrr.
alrights peepss.
its the beijing olympics! omg. how exciting!
did you guys catch it on the tv?
hmmmm. its a never to miss once in a 4year event! what a waste it would be if you din catch it!
its a world class sports event man!

Women Hockey - China no.8 Fu Bao Rong. check out those musclessss!!

Women Hockey - China no.22 Song Qing Ling. the reverse specialist!!
oh here's the tiny DengLinlin from the China women gymnastic. damn cute lah.
Woman Swimming - Pellegrini Federica from Italy. 20years of age. a gold medalist. chiosss!
Man badminton - Taufik Hidahyat!!! from Indonesia! my favourite! but he's out! :(
last but not least - - MICHEAL PHELPS!!!! OH BABY. HE ROCK ASS!!!!!

25 years of old and a world record smashing holder of many events! currently clinched his 5th gold medal in the beijing olympic. world class swimmer!

now i'm off for more olympic action!

will be back soon!

BYE!

2008-08-09T13:46:00.002+08:00

you said you love me
said you never leave me
maybe i just heard you wrong

alright. did i mention thursday was a great day in school?! :D
hahahha. its like candies candies for my eyes eyes!!! hurrr.

oh anyway. i know where i'm attached to already. symrise! its a flavour and frangrance company! joan, if you happen to see this. YES! i'm attached to symrise! your company! hurrr.

so after school was trg. and its pretty slack! surprisingly there's no fitness today. but weight was hell alot heavy. hurrr. the fact that i stop weights session for damn long alr. hurrr. i love the drills! coolz! hmmmm. dined and homed!

friday 080808!
grand opening of the olympics! haha
well. when fish and co with company and headed off to marina for bowling and pool. and off to makan sutra for some snacks and after that was cam-whoring along singapore river. got home like around 4am! yeah.

so today is nationaly day!
so i shall dedicate a song here!
come ppl. lets sing slong!!!!

Stand up for Singapore, do the best you can
Reach out for your fellow man
You've got to make a stand
Recognise you can play your part
Let it come right from your heart
Be prepared to give a little more
Stand up, stand up for Singapore

Stand up for Singapore, do it with a smile
If you stand up for Singapore
You'll find it all worthwhile
Believe in yourself, you've got something to share
So show us all you really care
Be prepared to give a little more
Stand up, stand up for Singapore

Singapore our home and nation
Together with determination
Join in like we've never done before
Stand up, stand up for Singapore ( X 3 )

lastly,
happy birthday singapore!!!

BYE!

2008-08-07T00:09:00.002+08:00

hey girl,
tell me your name

i dont know what to blog.
and i blog cause it would be dead if i dont write something here.

hmmmm. lets see.
its been a busy week i guess.
finishing up all presentations and report. haiz.

and so polite hockey ended.
we were crowned champion again! :)

up next would be polite floorball.
looking forward to it.
hopefully i'll be able to play.
i wanna collect the gold medal for the 3rd time.
hmmmmmmmmmmm.

i'm shagged! D:
totally.

BYE!
(p.s: high expectation leads to huge disappointment)

2008-08-02T17:21:00.002+08:00

you make me so shy shy shy

RAHH!!!
i've got 3 names and 2 class!
and its driving me crazy!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

what a saturday!
seriously.

it just seems like i cant google it.
i mean google dont have.

hmmmm. sian.

i shall continue my search in school!
wahaha. :)

BYE!

2008-08-01T14:51:00.003+08:00

baby, i'm damaged
so so damaged
because of you

so its all project projects and projectss plus meeting datelines! RAHH
sian.

did beep test ytd!
woohoo! level 11! :D :D :D
just what i targetted! :)
glad that i'm able to meet my personal target! yeah.
its been like a weeks plus since i last went for trg. hah. feel so great to train! :D
yeah. dine and home plus my beauty sleep! :)
its a satisfying day! hurr

now i'm in school waiting for time to pass. hmmm.
sian man.

so yah.

BYE!
p.s: you want others to be sensitve to you, likewise pls do the same to others too..

2008-07-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

hey that lady
that pretty lady..

alrights.
met leng in school. she came to school to settle some insurance stuff in the office.
while she is arguing with that clerk there, me being bored, i started playing with her clutches! hurrr. hahha. quite fun leh. hurrrr. choy choy choy! better not curse myself. hurrrrrrrr.

so i had lunch at north canteen! prata! hahha.
after that was a session with guru in his office! hahahha. i swear guru is damn funny!
hmmm. headed to mac and had fries and cake! D: fat man!
hurrr. and off for game against SP!
final score was 9-1! D: was quite disappointed with the 1 goal we conceeded. hmmm. nvm. and so i scored 4 goals today! :) weather was such a killer. oh oh oh. finally we got our jersey! NICE!!

so i'm home now! doing project and report! sianzzzz! -.-

omg! i'm so sleepy alr!

i need a hair cut soon! :/

beep test oh thursday! D: D: D:

till now and then

BYE!
p.s: hey, show me your beautiful eyes

2008-07-29T12:26:00.003+08:00

i cant forget it
i wont regret it
cause i'm still in love with you

i seriously cant wait for this sem to end!
its killing me!
RAHHHH!

forensic project down!
labelling project down!
product development project down!

advanced food chem and food business not yet done! D:

advanced food processing test on thurs, I HAVENT STUDY! D:

polite hockey still on.
nat trg still on (heard its gng to increase D:)
oh my.
EXAMS coming soon!

shot me!
BANG BANG BANG!!!

BYE!
p.s: i hate school, i hate you

2008-07-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

she so lovely
she so lovely
she so lovely

finallly PDD exhibition over!
PHEW! relieved relieved!

2 more weeks and its exam study period!

hang on hang on!

rahhhhhh.

i'm fucking tired now!
i need my sleep!

project project projects,
please leave me alone! :/

BYE!
p.s: i caught my eyes on you

2008-07-27T22:58:00.002+08:00

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go
how do i ever
ever survive
how do i how do i
oh how do i live

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还停留
说不出口的感动
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
不能重来
不愿离开
是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
so how do i live
how do i live
how do i live
without you

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还放手
没有一次
停留
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

oh tell me now

how do i live without you
how do i breathe without you

life sucks!

BYE!

2008-07-26T10:37:00.002+08:00

do you feel better now
as she falls to the ground

friday. was as usual.
comm skills test in the morning was alright i guess.
pdd presentation and off to prepare the blooody cheesecake for monday's exhibition. hmmmm. off to have my first meal of the day at 445pm! damn busy ah. and to the pitch to catch the polite matches. hmmmm. nothing to say i guess.

the weather damn cold lah. dont know what's happening to the world man.
hurr.

alright.
gotta to go shower and leave house to meet the stupid federation godmother.
after that game at 3pm! doubt the weather will be hot!

till now and then,

BYE!
p.s: awkward awkward awkward! :/

2008-07-24T20:44:00.003+08:00

I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

tuesday
busy with school

wednesday
busy sleeping and off to school for polite.
game against TP. won 6-0! :)
and i scored 3 goals! :) half of the final score. haha.
best of all. our dearest LENG came and watch the game! :D
oh my. like so long never see her alr. hahha.

today
busy with school.
i swear i'm so dead lah. like bloody hell stress.
die me. me die. xinni die. die xinni.

BYE!
p.s: I think I can't, I think I can't

2008-07-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

it just hurt so much

its just a lousy day.
rahhhh.
i mean its not that lousy but to see somebody and somebody just makes me feel so lousy. seriously.

anyway.
polite hockey starts today.
first game against NP. won 8-0.
and i think i scored half of it. 4 goals! :) but i think lynn's reverse hit goal was damn cool! chio man! hurrr.

from the pitch to the stadium.....

BYE!
p.s: to hate, there has to be love.

2008-07-20T00:26:00.002+08:00

I think I dreamed you into life
I have been waiting all my life

trg today.
was so sleepy.
hurr.

haiz.
what a day.
what a night.
damn!

i'm so angry but i dont know how to express it out.
damn!

BYE!
p.s: 才离开没多久就开始担心今天的你过得好不好整个画面是你想你想的睡不着

2008-07-18T10:09:00.002+08:00

self denial

yesterday match was dots to the max!
those guys are bloody huge lah. i cant even see the ball when i stnad behind my man. i'm so afraid that they will ram me down if i stay too close to them. darn hell.
and i have a ba loo kuu on my head alr! got hit by the damn ball! die means will get brain cancer! D: D:

hmmmmm.
i should be like preparing for school now!
damn hell!
i wanna sleep!

BYE!
p.s: repeated times of 'impossible' but its still not getting into my head

2008-07-17T17:41:00.002+08:00

And sometimes I say things that
I wish that I could take back

shall blog before i leave house for stupid div one men's league game! RAHHHHHH! (DREADSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS to the max!)

floorball trg ytd was great i guess??
hurrrr. i love the running part. the end part the running. you get it? you get which part i'm talking about? hurrr. its okay. i know which part can already. hurrrr.

school today was as usual.
i'm addicted to bridge!
not overhead or whatsoever. its the poker bridge!!! :)
hahhaha.

anyway. i gotta go alr. if not i'll be late!

BYE!
p.s: i shove your hands (holding the cam) away; i regret :(

2008-07-16T12:26:00.002+08:00

living in my wonderful world of memories

training yesterday was terrible! :/
warm up, 8 rounds in 12mins! D:
came in like 12mins plus plus seconds! D:
stretching stretching stretching, followed by
5 sets of 300meteres sprint in 60secs with like 50sec rest intervel! D: D: D:
managed to complete it. but last 2 sets was totally drained! D:
hurrrr.
drills was COOL! hahha. totally LOVE it! :D :D :D
yeah. thats about it.
dined and homed as usual!

this morning...
my muscles are aching like shit! totally shit! its been quite some time since i suffer such aches after trg. totally suck! rahhh.
i've got school from 9-5 today. but i'm sitting at home blogging now.
like WTH are you doing at home now xinni?! hurrr.

BYE!
(off to do my projectssss and reportssss)

p.s: quoted, "cherish what you got now before its gone"

2008-07-15T07:51:00.002+08:00

You're the only one I turn to
When I feel like no one's there
And when I'm lonely in my darkest hour
~~You give me the power~~
~~To sit and pretend~~

bitch test at 10am! i'm so not prepared! fuck man! RAHH!!!
its gonna be a tiring day! trg after school. dread. cause i got a hell lot stuff to complete this week. and i dont have time!

haiz. i shall go shower and flip some notes now! before i really get a big ZERO for my test. RAHH.

till then....

BYE!

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.

2008-07-13T12:49:00.002+08:00

i wish time could stop
so i could have you forever

saturday.
friendly. no fun! :/
morning bad.
afternoon great! :)
evening terrible! :/
passed midnight miserable! :(

i could bearly open my eyes now!
fuck man.

BYE!
(p.s: iwishthatconversationnevercomestoafullstop...)

2008-07-11T08:04:00.002+08:00

sometimes, things are just so unpredictable.

to my ever lovely pigging partner!
recover fast!
waiting for you to go for our frog leg feast that we plan like thousands year ago!
be strong and dont worry. we'll always be here to support you!
alright?! :)

cheers!
yours sincerely,
pigging partner chua! :)

2008-07-09T09:08:00.002+08:00

you're always lingering on my mind

yo! i'm back!
from the wonderful kl trip with the team! :D
yeah. tiring week i swear! hurrr

anyway. school is getting REAL busy!
projects and projects are dueing like soon

dots to the max!

hmmmm.
so many things to say so little time!

BYE!

2008-07-03T17:12:00.002+08:00

I wanna make love in this club

yo! back for updates! :)

lately its been a lil busy for me! :/

monday was just back to the dreadful lesson after 2 weeks of holiday and 1 week of common test. haiz. seriously sian. cause theres so much work to do. project projects and projectss! like what the sai!

tuesday school was dot dotss..
training was great! wahahhaha. 8 rounds for warm up and no physical! yayness to the max. drill drills and more drillsss! FUN! muahahhaha. GREAT! :D
dine with matessss and home to my bed!

wednesday! forget about the school part cause dai di and brigde was great with classmates! hahahhah.
nyp hockey friendly suck! i swear! fuck that fucking coach! seriously! he suck to the core! felt damn fuck insulted! so what if i'm a national player?! like fuck you. i'm not god! i cant do everything all by myself?! and i dont even felt abit disgraceful about myself. and u the fucking nyp hockey coach not just insulted me but also my fellow team mates in the team and the coaches who train us! haiz. i should stop wasting my breath on that fucking cb dickless idiot!

anyhow. floorball game was so much better. :)

today. sensory test in the morning was great. i think our cheese cake this time round was the bestest of all! muahaha. NICE! :) met leng and fariza for lunch and headed home to pack my stuff for tmr's trip! oh did i mention i'm gng kl with the team?! yeah. anyway we're leaving tmr morining! yeah :)

gotta leave home for div one game alr!
will update when i'm back from the short trg trip! :)

cheers! :)

BYE!
p.s: stillinlwthatsass!

2008-06-29T20:22:00.005+08:00

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind

yo! i'm back again! :D

yesterday game was dots to the max! like F-U-C-K! wtf! seriously! i ran like a mad dog pls. totally got no more energy. and i swear i played like fuck! rahhhhh. hack care man!

after game. went back nothland for the big fat hockey party! yeah! :D :D :D
great to the max! was a lil pity that we went like abit late and wasnt able to catch a glimpse of the really senior seniors!
well. it was still fun though. back to the school that make me a champion for 4 consecutives year! love it man! :) :) :)

pics pics pics....

the ex-northlanders!

oh did i mention that i love her?! :)
the candle lite couple??!
us!
more of us!
err... again!
our acheivements! so proud of it! :D

closed up!
lastly! i miss those days where i'm still playing for northland!

alright! gotta go!

BYE!

2008-06-28T13:33:00.004+08:00

but its over now

finally. common test is like over. except for that bitch's paper on tuesday.

yeah. been studying?! or rather sleeping and slacking at home recently! hurrrr.

super sian. totally no mood for school! seriously.

division one game later against src men! sian! totally sian to the max!

its been like 2 weeks since i last touch my beloved hockey stick! totally miss it but then again, i hope i'll be able to run later and hopefully dont get injured! (choy. touch wood man)

yeah yeah yeah.

i officially declare that

i'm fucking broke!

please fucking give me that money

i need to settle alot of stuff.

i hope tmr never come!

totally dread.

anyhow.

on a lighter note.

i would like to wish

wileen ong a happy belated birthday! :D and

shaula a happy lalala birthday! :D

cheers! :D

BYE!

2008-06-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

say all i need
is the air i breathe
and a place to rest my head

skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger skins tiger.....
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! how how how?? skins or tiger? :/
you got to decide asap man xinni! :/

food chem test tmr!
DIE DAY!!!

BYE!
(ps: imtlgns)

2008-06-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

You really had me goin'

morning was food business paper. gone case! :/
hurrr. lunch with leng and johnson. and homed!
tomorrow's food mircobiology paper. wonder how it'll turn out.
hmmmmm.

anyhow.
i need to get a pair of turf shoes like real soooooooooon!
oh my! i miss playing hockey! :(
to be exact, i miss playing good hockey!
i wanna go trip so i can leave this place.
4th july faster commmmmmeeee!!!

i need a break!
turn me into a moron please so that i can have a peace of mind! :/

BYE!

2008-06-23T21:37:00.002+08:00

everytime that we meet i skip a heartbeat

sunday was spent at delta delta delta!
caught the 3rd and 4th placing and finals of the AHF cup.
singapoer won sri lanka to clinch the 3rd place and champion goes to bangladesh after beating oman with a thrashing score. yeah.

school reopens today. like W-T-H! -_-
anyway its coomontest week.
today's paper was labelling and err it kind of went like dots dots dots....
yeah. lunch with leng kia and home! :)

OMG! i almost screamed my lungs out just now.
me sitting on the chair facing the monitor, suddenly smth flew above the monitor and to the wall. initiately i thought it was a moth or butterfly and when i lift my head up i saw a bloody crocroach. OMG!!! its a flying roach! bloody hell. TOTALLY FREAK ME OUT!!! seriously scare the hell shit outta me. its like 1metre away from me only. wtf! wah. lucky my ever brave saviour is around and the bloody roach is dead alr! muahahahahahahhaha.

tmr food business test! dooms day!

BYE!

2008-06-22T14:01:00.002+08:00

i thought i'm through, but,
that feeling too strong to fight
i lost.

you dont mess with the zohan!
hahhahhaha. super hilarious movie. i laugh through out the show! damn funny lah!
went to get the bag that i wanted very very much! but not for myself! :( sadded!
so that was friday!

saturday!
woke up early early in the morning. like w-t-h! so early lah.
went school for training and friendly!
lets not talk about trg. friendly was cool shit! seriously!
damn fun lah. its been some time since i last played a challenging floorball team! and it feels damn great to play aginst tough teams! u know the satisfaction you get and all! be it a pass, a dribble, a tackle or a run, its just AWESOME!!! great great! :D :D :D
and so xinni scored 3 goals! hat trick! but like tyco shit goals. hurrr.
so i guess my happy time of the day ends there.

went delta to catchthe guys match against oman. they lost 2-1. it was a shit match. i mean the umpire suck!!! to the core till like no core! super angry. the home crowd was seriously furious and i just feel like throwing the pom pom at him! haiz. luck wasn't with the guys. they had many golden opportunities but was poorly delt with and din managed to convert them. hardluck i should say! its okay lah. they fought hard though.

today was just a plain lazy day. woke up like duper duper super early again! :/
almost went back to sleep! lucky my nanny woke me up in time again. if not i'll be dead meat! hurrrrrrr. so now i'm here typing and typing. tmr's common test! suck man! and i got a whole lot hell of work to complete in no time! i dont want to go to school i dont want to work. i just want to sleep through my life! :/

BYE!

(p.s: hit me with a few more hard sad disappointing angry vicious evil bitchy but not jealousy blows and i'm sure i'll be able to do it! thanks!)

2008-06-19T13:07:00.005+08:00

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

this morning started off pretty well! :D
shall see if today is a good day! :)
hahaha.

yeah. so yeaterday was spent at home revising for common test and evening was at delta for my 30mins runs and after that was watching game. singapore vs bangladesh. score was 1-1! marvellous game! fantastic performance displayed by the home team. well done guys! so proud of them! :) and its a such a pleasure to watch how my idol play! those dribbles, those runs, simply left me wow-ing all the way till i cant shut my mouth! hahhaha. admirable! :))

alright. shall go and do some revision now! :)

BYE! :)

2008-06-17T13:57:00.002+08:00

the best way for me,
is not to see you ever again!

crab feast was great!
A BIG THANK! :D

and so, this week is gonnna be a study week. gotta chiong all my modules!
RAHHHH. sucks man. the thought of study makes me wanna sleep! D:

and i'm off now!

BYE!

2008-06-15T13:38:00.002+08:00

how fuck up can it be!
i stayed on cause i still enjoy playing the game.
but staying on makes me feel so fuck lousy.
like totally!
and whats responsibility?!
fuck!

i dont know what the fuck you are gng to think what i wrote here.

and i'm just a gross disgusting sick ass to you.

anyway.
enough said.
i'm speechless!

2008-06-12T11:56:00.006+08:00

better in time

hey hey yo yo! i'm back!
wahhahahha.

summary of premier league 2008 by chua xinni!
from a last placing last year to a runners up this year, jansenites girls have proven not only to themselves, but to the crowd, the officials and to the hockey infinity that we are not just a bunch of young girls playing slack hockey. we are capable of producing stunning performance and of course excellent results! i believe with the right attitude and mindset, we can make it far, we can be the champion!

as for myself, i think i did pretty well this year. though there are games where i din do well, but overall i think its a good season for me! yeah. and i gained alot of satisfaction dribbling and scoring, but the most satisfying thing is to be part of this team! :)

to dearest mai, sorry for the sacrifice. in our heart you'll always be beautiful. :)

alright, so monday marks the blah of my school study break, so slept in and blah blah.

tuesaday was blah blah and training.
omg! the usual run that we have increased from 12mins 8 rounds to 18mins 12 rounds = 1 round 1min 30secs! rahh. kill me pleaase! totally cannot take it. some more we did weights before the run. my legs were like some jelly shit. totally too weak to run. and of course i din meet target. rahh. after that was basic and drills! i love shooting drills!!! and i finally scored using reverse hit, flat nicely on the ground and to the corner edge of the goal. wahahaha. so happy! :D :D
yeah. and after trg was dinner with lam, cookie and wt. homed and iced my wonderfully injured ankle! like wtf! rahh!

wednesday is happy day as mentioned in my previous post. hahhaha. slack and was contemplating whether to go for P.T session. and in the end i went! muaha! 20mins O.T.O.T run. ruyi said "20mins is about 10-15rounds" and in my heart i'm like "CRAZY" hahahha. 400m in 2mins = impossible! hurrr. but still i gave my best. so i completed 9 and half round of track! satisfied! :) and after the run ruyi said "hahha. actually 10rounds is a lie lah, should be 8 rounds" like dots dots... hahha. (wileen, next time run u must lap me kay! hahaha)

omg! training later. not looking forward to weights session and 12 rounds! D: but.. looking forward to what new skills i'll learn today! hah. please pray for my ankle to not break so fast! :/ i still want to run and play! heeeee.

my eyes are popping out soon. staring at the monitor for so long alr.
SO...

BYE! :)
(i'm still very very much attracted to you, STUPID one)

2008-06-07T14:56:00.002+08:00

I know we're moving fast
We're running from the past
I'm holding on before it fades away

i concluded that wednesday is happy day! :D

i declared that its term break!
wahhhaahha.
but i've tonnes to things to do.

rahhh. my money making business is winding up soon!
sads. :(

tomorrow's the big day.
will i still be able to shed that tears of joy?

why aint i born a olympian? :/

BYE!

2008-06-05T22:05:00.001+08:00

this is the time of my life

below is a write up form shf website!

Women's Premier League Cup Semi-finals
Jansenites shock Police to reach Cup final
By Eddie dos Passos/SHF

Jansenites pulled off one of the season's biggest upsets when they disposed of Police in the semi-finals of the Women's Premier League Cup in a penalty shoot-out at Delta Stadium on Sunday evening and won 4-2 after the match ended in a 2-2 stalemate.

Only a day earlier, the match had to be halted less than 15 minutes into play because of the threat of lightning and was resumed Sunday, starting from the moment it was stopped.

Police by this time, led 1-0 through a sixth minute Chu Yue Xiu field-goal and upon resumption of play the following day, Police extended their lead through Florence Chua Siew Lian, to hand them a comfortable 2-0 cushion.

Much to Police's surprise, Jansenites launched their offensive and stuck gold when they scored off a Chua Xinni firing home from a penalty corner in the 22nd minute, reducing the deficit to 2-1.

Then Jansenites struck pay dirt when they were awarded a free-hit from just outside the edge of the Police goal. Chua was again in the thick of the action and her seemingly wide hit was deflected off the stick of Siti Nur Basirah B Md Ibrahim and looped past a stranded Police keeper Siti Zawiah B Abd Malek for the equalizer.

After conceding the equalizer, Police's experienced proved futile as they sent in raids in waves in anticipation of producing another goal, preferable the winner.

With the match deadlocked, the two sides knew that the match was going into extra-time of seven minutes each half.

Even then, the amount of attacks by Police mounted on the Jansenites goal, saw them absorb everything thrown at them with penalty corners coming in thick of a largely Police barrage after the end of extra-time, the match had to rely on the luck of the draw - penalty shoot-out.

But as with every penalty shoot-out, only one winner will emerge, in this case it was Jansenites when their defender held their nerves to settle the issue.

Jansenites join their male compatriots in the finals where both teams will face off against an all-Singapore Recreation Club final next Sunday.

i'm proud! are you?
JANSENITES YAY YAY!!! :D

got to go already.

BYE!

2008-06-01T13:50:00.003+08:00

Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything

omg! its been a week since i last blogged! hahaa.

last week....
monday was just a boring school day. like bleh D:

tuesday. school as usual. and head off to delta for training. and on the way to delta. i saw a fucking pervert! bloody hell. scare the hell out of my life man! he is like fucking masturbating in the bushes. give me a shock man! D: GROSSSSS TO THE MAX!!!! yucks!!!!

wednesday. school as usual... and actually my daily rountine in school can be seen below! PSP, poker cards and sleeping in class!!! hahha. went for floorball trg. hah. so long never play floorball, feel so great after trg. hahhahah. :)

dont mess ard with her!! GAMBLING QUEEN!!
sleeping zzzzzzz...

thursday.

i concluded that i love jude's trg! :)

friday.

a day of lazing.. rahhhh

jansenites trg and my meehoonkway at 233!

saturday.

jansenites FIRST EVER SEMIS for woman.

played for 15mins and it poured like hell. so it was postphone!

and lastly pics with hazlin's niece!

so CUTEEEEEEE!!!! :D

thats all.

BYE!

2008-05-24T15:03:00.004+08:00

And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you

time to update! hurrr.
but i need to go and shower already. :/

i'll talk more in my next post! :)

pics pics pics...

JANSENITES! :D

my "gi nas" (hahha)

there's more. but blogger is super lagggggg. so i just post some only. and lastly a super duper big THANKS to those who celebrated with me and those wonderful wishes! :))

BYE!

2008-05-17T22:01:00.002+08:00

Put down your world
Just for one night
Pick me again
will you?

omg! its been a week since i touch the comp!
haiz. busy week. lets begin with the talkings..

hah. national on tuesday and thursday! like as usual.

wednesday was slacking at home after school! hah! so shiok! had a good rest though! hahhaha.
hahhah. and i heard a little complain about __ session! hurrr.

friday. was jansenites trg! like finally there's ppl there! hahhaha. did some drills and short corner. after that was dinner at 233 again! :D

hah. today! SRC 4aside at padang! hahaha.
yay! we won! :D hah. so i spent a day in the hot sun and earn myself 40bucks! hah! worth it lah. hurrr. i'm burnt lah. my back's aching!!! OUCH!!! somebody pls massage for xinni can?! :/

haiz..
pondering.. either way. its the same. its just the measure of how much i'll gain. in terms of happiness and sadness. and i dont know which will weigh more if the decision were made. and i need to get out of this soon. cause i cant take it anymore. seriously. i think i'll just die! i'm a human too. with feelings...

2008-05-12T19:56:00.002+08:00

And all I wanna do is love you

why aint there nannys' day?! hurrrrr...

there's no school today. hahha. as class was cancelled! lecturer sick ah. hurrrr. so stayed home the whole day. slack slack and slack! haha. just as i wish! hahaha.
heard some cling cling clang clang noises at my house door step around 12plus noon. it was my nanny! hahaha. me, surprised by what she was carrying (donuts from donut factory! YUMS!), went like WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! DONUTS!!!! WEEEE! :D hahahhaha. (sounded like sone idiot who never see or eat donuts before like that) hurrr.
was so happy and excited! hhahaha. dont know for what also, just donuts?! hahha. probably its extra sweet cause my nanny bought it?! hah! din know she actually went to search for the shop to get us those yummylicious donuts! hah. its being long since i had donuts (from donut factory)! hurr. thanks ah ma! :D

school tmr! sian! -_-
hurrrr.

BYE!

2008-05-10T19:58:00.003+08:00

quit playing game with my heart

yeaterday was jansenite trg in northland. as usual, played our squash game and after that a mini game among ourself. yeah. went 233 for dinner and surprisingly the uncle who sell the handmade noodle still remember us! cool! hahaha.

today. was floorball in nyp! had friendly with MI. haha. bas's school! hhhaha. we won but i cant remember the score! hurr. it was cool. yeah. it would be better if we were to get to play with tougher team. then you'll see all the hot heads out there screaming and shouting! hurrr. its better to experience it now than later. you know... hurr.

well. saturday is just plain bored! and i wonder when we'll sit down together and have dinner again. those talks, those laughter. how i miss them. haiz.

anyway there's this new song by jay chou called "千山万水". damn nice! hahha. okay.

BYE!

2008-05-08T20:21:00.002+08:00

And if it's a hero you want, I can save you.
Just stay here. Your whispers are priceless.
Your breathe, it is dear. So please stay near.

alright its thursday. so lets update! hurrr

tuesday was hockey training. damn. weights program has step up and now the bloody weights that we have to carry is much more heavier and weak xinni totally gonna die from it. hurrr. training was freaking hell tiring though the drills we did we those simple ones. i was seriously drained! hurrr. dinner after that and headed home and i fell on my bed straight away!!! hurrr. super tired! :/

wednesday was a much better day i guess?! hahaha.
school school school and went for some weird talk and off for floorball training! coach wasnt around and so we did drills on our own! hurr. it was pretty fun i guess. hurr. though it seems like there isn't any sense of seriousness around. but i had a lot of fun and laughter at the beginning part of the training where we did shooting which ended up to be a 'faster ball snatcher first'! haha. its like there's short of one ball and everyone had to collect back their own ball after shooting if not too bad, whoever without a ball will have to wait for another round before you can get to shoot! hahha. seriously funny! hurrrr. later part of training was dots dots dots... hurrr. kind of boring and i think i yawned a few times while playing!!! hahhaha. stuppid me! hurrr. homed. and thanks to some kind soul who helped me with my work! haha. thanks! :)

today is just a plain bored sleepy day! i dozed off in school like a few times! :/
skipped training to complete some schoool work of mine. which i think is more important then trg. yeah. and i seriously need a good sleep tonight to compensate for the past few nights. yeah.

BYE!

2008-05-05T20:45:00.002+08:00

The end proves I can't do this
Alone

woohoo!
this bloody blog is like bloody dead! so lets update!
hurr.

school school school
hockey hockey hockey
floorball
umpiring...

hurr. i think that pretty much sum up for what i did last week. not gng through the detailed ones. yeah. hurrr.

anyway. island creamery seriously rock!!!
how i wish i could steal their recipe for the teh tarik ice cream. damn! cause its seriously yummylicious! slurps!!! and you know they actually came out with a tiger sorbet! tiger sorbet as in 'tiger beer ice cream'! and it really taste like tiger beer! hahah. seriously. i tried! so interesting and innovative! cool. but i dont like! hahhaha so peeps. next time when u visit island creamery, dont forget to ask them to let you try! :)

HAHAHAAHHAHAHAH!!! :D :D :D
i'm crazy!!!
cause i'm happy! :D
oh my. its been so long... hurrrrrrrr

BYE!

2008-04-26T21:44:00.002+08:00

will you bring me back to you someday

went for training today.
went dinning after that and this conversation took place!
location: KFC
action: eating fried chicken
xinni: eh fariza! bring me to geylang one day leh.
fariza: (laughing out loud) for what? siao ah!
xinni: hahahahah. no lah. wrong. i wanted to say bring me to paya lebar to eat chicken not geylang!
and the laughter continue...
so ppl do u get it?

alright. time to go.

BYE!

2008-04-25T21:34:00.003+08:00

how to forget when i still love you

whichever way its still the same.
seeing and not seeing both are making me equally sad.
please tell me what to do.

i dont know if i should smile,
i dont know how to be myself

and all along i'm just faking it to feel better.
infact it doesnt.

and i ask myself,
do you regret it?
i dont know.

:(

2008-04-24T17:45:00.005+08:00

my friend ask if we quarelled,
and i had to lie.

how sad.

i said i'll blog on tuesday but so sorry. i'm like super busy! hahaa.
yeah. so on tuesday was just a total shit day in school. :/ went for the friendly against the aussie team and i swear they are damn good and i could see that they were giving us chance if not the score would have been more than 7-0! haha. oh and also our dear useless was totally useful on pitch. she saved many of the shots that could have been a goal! well done lah! :D i give you 5 credits! enough?! hahhahahha.

wednesday. went for FHA exhibition! walk from expo hall 1-6 with 1hour plus. super tired. my legs almost break into pieces. hurr. after that was floorball trg in school. super tired lah. haiz. sian! :/

today. spent a super tiring day in school. i stoned in almost every lesson! like on the verge of falling asleep but i managed to keep myself awake. hurr.

yet another boring day tomorrow! kill me please! D:

omg! guess what?! there's something wrong with my ipod. like WTF! its like going crazy already!!! bloody hell. RAHHHH!

how i wish i could replace it with the one below?! :/

sadded! :(

BYE!